I'm Just Not Feeling It

Another Saturday, another Limbus. After not even going last week, I could barely muster up the enthusiasm to go to this thing. I'm trying to figure out if it's for purely selfish reasons (I have absolutely no use for Homam anything, or really anything from Appollyn until I get the yarn from Temenos) or just pure boredom. The shell made a good choice in putting me in the leftover party - I had hardly any interest in the normally epic Proto-Omega fight.

Lately it's been feeling like a chore just logging in. Perhaps it's just because I have a lot of personal issues going on, but the excitement I used to get from logging into this thing seems like a distant memory. With XIV on the horizon I can't find the enthusiasm to work toward any meaningful goal in XI recently. Until June, it's all been done before.

The only thing that was remotely interesting in XI lately has been the Wings of the Goddess quests/missions (which was what I was doing when I basically blew off my Limbus group last week.) But I promised to wait for Gaffy for any future fights, and he's never on.

I hope nobody in Blue has been taking my recent strange behaviour personally. It's just... the magic has been lost in this game; at least for me.

Vs. Sarameya? Really?

A full alliance? A tier 3 ZNM? Never thought I'd be doing things like this in FFXI, but here I am. It's been mentioned more than once that these drops can sell in the millions of gil. I'm hoping that it's the fight itself instead of the gil that has brought all these new players out of the woodwork. Itaz seems eager to recruit these people for future endeavours. I guess it'll be good to have a dedicated full alliance for each and every ZNM (From the lowest tier to the highest) but I hope a "Samano" situation doesn't occur from it. If so, I'm out.

My chocobo has aged like a fine wine, and is now as good as I'm going to get it. I thought I could boost its stats by feeding it special carrots, but while this did boost some stats... it also lowered others. I'll keep taking it on long walks in the hopes of finding good items, but I think it'll auto-retire soon.

I could talk about lots of things since I haven't posted in a while, but the sheer volume of stuff is intimidating to tackle all at once. I'll post things piecemeal later on.